My Life had stood – a Loaded Gun -
Who’s life? Emily’s? Who is the speaker of this poem.
Had is the past tense of have and an auxiliary verb to the past tense stood, so the poem (so far) is a reflective poem. It is about the past.
The dashes surrounding ‘a Loaded Gun’ give dramatic pause, giving ‘a Loaded Gun’ extra weight when read within that line. The reader is supposed to notice the image of the loaded gun, maybe to shock or surprise the reader. The line is definitely an ominous foreshadowing for the rest of the poem. Whatever happens, it cannot be good.
A loaded gun is a powerful metaphor that holds connotations of danger, revenge, mortality, murder, and a threat to life. Perhaps even suicide. If the speakers life stood as a loaded gun then somehow her life resembled a loaded gun, at least poetically. Could the speaker been on the verge of action, the way a loaded gun is on the verge of firing? Maybe the bullet in the chamber is unused potential in the speaker’s life…
In Corners – till a Day
The speaker is in a corner? Her life is in a corner? The gun is in a corner? For a day? Read on…
The Owner passed – identified -
The owner of what? I notice that the first verb of each line is capitalized. Why was the corner capitalized? Why is the Owner capitalized? Are they important? Is s/he the owner of the corner? Perhaps the speaker’s landlord… S/he passed the speaker, and it seems s/he didn’t notice the speaker but the speaker noticed and identified the Owner. Interesting. There seems to be a mysterious, and unfriendly, relationship between the Owner and the speaker.
And carried Me away –
The owner carried the speaker, capitalized, away somewhere. Well, now it really seems like the relationship between the speaker and owner is an unfriendly one. Carried her away where? To debtor’s prison?
And now We roam in Sovereign Woods -
We being the Owner and the Speaker. Now I wonder if the Owner owns the speaker’s life in some way. They roam in the Sovereign Woods. Roam, to me, connotates a benign, even wonderful and adventurous action. Sovereign Woods, capitalized, would be a wood that holds supreme authority over it’s environment. A forest free from man’s influence?
And now We hunt the Doe -
Again, all nouns are capitalized. The Owner and the Speaker, roaming through the Sovereign Woods, hunt a Doe. With a loaded gun? Is the Doe a metaphor? Is she instead hunting something (like a Doe) with her life (like a loaded gun)?
And every time I speak for Him -
Him = the Owner. Read on…
The Mountains straight reply -
So if the Mountains are replying for Him, the Owner, perhaps the Owner isn’t a man. Maybe the Owner is Nature. Oh, that’s very Whitmanian. This makes sense to me, nature (or God… Pan?) being the Owner of the Speaker’s life, which stands a loaded gun. I wonder how they reply to the speaker…
And do I smile, such cordial light
So, in response to the Mountain’s reply, our Speaker smiles, reflecting a vital and sincere (?) light off of her teeth. The Speaker must feel a warm hearted, loving-kindness toward the Mountains/Owner if a straight reply causes her to smile light out of her face.
Upon the Valley glow -
Nature again, being given very heavenly qualities (a Valley glowing?) — Whitman? The Valley, capitalized like the Mountains and the Doe, seem to be a part of the Owner, whoever he is.
It is as a Vesuvian face
It = the Valley/Mountain/Doe/Owner…? has a Vesuvian face… a face that is either like a slow burning match or marked by sudden or violent outbursts. Perhaps the sudden and violent outbursts aren’t meant to be such a horrible thing, but instead glorious light (glow?) burst suddenly from it’s face. But then again the face is just a metaphor (it is as a … face). So it, whatever it is, is not really a face, but like one.
Had let its pleasure through -
So before there had been something blocking “its” pleasure from coming through, but now, with the Vesuvian face and the glowing Valleys, the pleasure has been let through. Through to who? To the speaker? Is the “it” life, letting life’s pleasure through to the speaker who had never felt it before?
And when at Night – Our good Day done -
Night, Day, and Our are all capitalized. Nouns again are holy figures, it seems. Anyway, this line basically says: our glorious day is over, and now it’s nighttime.
I guard My Master’s Head -
The Master = the Owner? The head is the seat of life and consciousness, so I can understand why that would be guarded over many other of the Owner/Master’s body parts. But why does it need to be guarded? And in what way is the Owner the speaker’s Master?
‘Tis better than the Eider-Duck’s
The Head or the Master is better than a large sea duck’s head (again capitalized)? How is the Master’s Head better than an Eider-Duck’s. Why is an Eider-Duck used in this line instead of any other animal with a head?
Deep Pillow – to have shared -
So it is obvious the Speaker and the Master are in a bedroom at night. Perhaps the master is a Loaded Gun, and the Head is some part of that gun, lying under her Deep Pillow? If it were it would make sense that she would share the pillow with the gun, it would make sense that she would protect it, and it would make sense that it would be better than an eider-duck’s head (which one would win in a shoot-out? One would fire flame and metal, the other would explode in a pink mist).
To foe of His – I’m deadly foe -
To the Master’s enemy, the Speaker is also a deadly enemy. So the Master and the Speaker are on one side. If the Master/Owner is the Loaded Gun, then it makes sense that whoever is being shot by the gun (the gun’s enemy) is also the shooter’s enemy (theoretically the speaker, who would fire the gun). And a deadly foe… well, in my opinion to be called a deadly anything requires power enough to kill efficiently and quickly. A person armed with a gun, and a grudge, would definitely fit that bill.
None stir the second time -
One shot, one kill. Two man enter, one man leave, this is Thunderdome. If you’re the speaker’s enemy, you don’t get a second chance after she attacks. Her enemies die the first time.
On whom I lay a Yellow Eye -
The Speaker’s Yellow Eye is a sign that she is going to kill you. Like the evil eye. Like a wolf’s yellow glare piercing through a wintery darkness, marking its prey. Beware if you are that whom she lays her Yellow Eye upon, it may mean certain death.
Or an emphatic Thumb -
If she lays a Thumb on you with emphasis, then the result is the same as if she lays her Yellow Eye on you. Perhaps her emphatic Thumb cocks the loaded gun, sealing your fate.
Though I than He – may longer live
So she will live longer than He… Is He the gun, which could possibly rust and become useless within her lifetime. Is He the Owner/Master, which could be nature or the gun… Is the He the person she has killed? Why does He not live as long as She?
He longer must – than I -
So even though she lives longer than He, He should/must live longer than Her. Is the He her life? I don’t understand. Why would He need to live longer than her? Is He a lover of hers? Is He something the firing of the gun destroys, such as innocence or other life? Nature?
For I have but the power to kill,
Obviously. But it sounds like the power to kill is the only power she possesses, when she says, “I have but…” So her life has no power, no meaning, apart from that damned, cursed Loaded Gun, which destroys He who should live longer than she, but was killed too soon because of her deadly weapon.
Without–the power to die–
So she has the power to kill, but she cannot die (at least by her own hands). I think that she killed her lover but cannot bring herself to commit suicide by the same loaded gun (or perhaps she only owned one bullet, which is now lodged in the brain of her dead lover. So all of her life becomes that loaded gun, nothing means anything anymore because she has killed He, the Master, the Owner. With such a tragic event, how else could she view her life? That loaded gun has engulfed her, made her a part of it. Now she stands over her dead lover, the man who owned and was master of her heart. Now she looks down at the gun in her hand, still smoldering from the barrel, and realizes that she has become that mindless, killing machine. That her life now stands as a Loaded Gun.
There seems to be multiple, optional themes running parallel to each other. On the one hand the poem could be read as being about unused potential finally fired off at the end, like a violent orgasm. Or it could be read as being a depressing, horrid turn of events — a killing of the beauty of life.